<![CDATA[Unsilenced- Survivor's Journey To Justice]]>
unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/podcastSubstackMon, 08 Jun 2026 05:50:04 GMThttps://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/8521517.rssUnsilenced- Survivor's Journey To JusticeI spent 30 years silent and 6 fighting for justice. My r@pist is now in prison. Now I talk about what silence really costs survivors of sexual abuse - and the injustice of a system you'll only see from the inside. This is unsilencedsurvivor.episodicUnsilenced- Survivor's Journey To Justiceangiemcquillin@gmail.comYes<![CDATA[Confronting The Child Protection Agencies ]]>I got wind that the man who I put behind bars for raping was someone who had worked closely with and done fundraising for multiple child protection agencies. There were multiple agencies either run or founded by 3 separate people.2 responded with a deep level of integrity and I have all the respect for them and the charities they work for. The third implied I was lying and blocked me. This video I detail what happened between us and why I think this is the problem we face in society. This is all part of my rape survivor story - I hope you find this useful. If any of this resonates I can be reached on hello@angiemcquillin.com. Enjoy.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/confronting-the-child-protectionsubstack:post:200011731Sun, 31 May 2026 18:15:11 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo572<![CDATA[My Sister's Reaction When I Finally Opened Up About What Happened]]>I was aged 20 when I told my sister Id been raped - 4 years after the assault took place. It was the first time I’d told anyone the full story.As Ive said many times a family of a survivor are the silent casualties and collateral damage when one has been violated. My sister's reaction is over 20 years old now but I remember it like yesterday. Im documenting this because it's the unspoken part many don't discuss about being a survivor. Having to see the reaction of people you love who are also affected by the sexual assault. This is all part of my rape survivor story - I hope you find it useful. If any of this resonates then feel free to email me on hello@angiemcquillin.com #mentalhealthmatters #sexualassaultawareness #breakingsilence #justice #dv



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/my-sisters-reaction-when-i-told-thesubstack:post:198941097Sat, 23 May 2026 08:30:07 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo544<![CDATA[The Day I Told My Brother I'd been Raped]]>Its so easy to assume the only person affected by being raped is the survivor themselves. That goes without saying but I have sen first hand the impact on the family.Family still feel helpless, angry, hurt and sad too. In this video I discuss the occasion I told my brother and his reaction.This is all part of my rape survivor story - I hope you find this channel useful.Enjoy.#rape #rapesurvivorstory #domesticviolenceawareness #sexualassaultawareness #dv



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/the-day-i-told-my-brother-id-beensubstack:post:198568485Wed, 20 May 2026 14:39:34 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo383<![CDATA[The Emotional Explosion Before Reporting Him]]>Many people think that going to the police was a choice. On paper that's technically true - but at that time when I reported my r@pist my options were to live with emotions internally that were killing me - or face the unknown of what reporting him would look like. To me that wasn't a choice as nothing could be worse than living the rest of my life feeling how I felt then. there was so much containment going on I can hardly express in words how it felt to live it. It wasn't an unexpected moment - it had been building for years and years and I simply couldn't take the suppressed silence anymore. This video is not to suggest all survivors should to to the police - it really is a very personal choice and everyone has their own story, experience and react to it in their own way. I wasn't ready for years - but when I was, I didn't feel like there was an alternative. If any of this resonates with you I can be reached on hello@angiemcquillin.com . I hope you enjoy the podcast.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/the-emotional-explosion-before-reportingsubstack:post:198156073Sun, 17 May 2026 18:12:32 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo553<![CDATA[My Three Worst Things of a 6 Year Justice Battle]]>People often make the assumption that the hardest part of a justice system process is going on stand or seeing their rapist for the first time. They are also very difficult moments of course - but the parts that were the hardest are often a shock to people. The parts that required the most energy and caused the most overwhelm and stress are often misunderstood.In this video I mention what was the 3 hardest parts in the whole 6 year justice system process. If any of this resonates with you I can be reached on hello@angiemcquillin.com Enjoy....



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/my-three-worst-things-of-a-6-yearsubstack:post:197651846Thu, 14 May 2026 08:09:53 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo274<![CDATA[Telling my parents I'd been r@ped - and their reaction...]]>This was a conversation I’d had in my head for over 2 decades. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. In this moment I had to manage my own emotions and see in real time my parent's emotions too. I was more then telling them in this moment…. this was them finding out. There’s a difference. Here’s what happened and how they reacted. For video footage on this conversation you’ll find me on youtube under ‘Angie McQuillin Unsilenced’. Enjoy.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/telling-my-parents-id-been-rped-andsubstack:post:197254134Mon, 11 May 2026 18:49:52 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo863<![CDATA[Would I recommend you reporting your sexual assault?]]>I know I don't talk highly about my experience in the justice system - and it may put many people off. My motivation isn't to put people off. On the contrary. Thing is, what I experienced may be what other experience too. So what's worse? Going into it and feeling utterly deflated by it or going into it with your eyes wide open. I cant change the system - but I can help people be more prepared for what is to come if they choose to go into it. All Im sharing is truth - a truthful account of what my experience was.I'd have loved to have seen content similar before going to court to be prepared for all eventualities.If any of this resonates with you feel free to email: hello@angiemcquillin.comI hope you enjoy this podcast



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/would-i-recommend-you-reporting-yoursubstack:post:196815197Thu, 07 May 2026 18:57:37 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo553<![CDATA[You 'need' to know this if you're going to court]]>Here I explain a distressing reality of going to court after reporting an assault: the courthouse is treated as a neutral environment where prosecution and defence share the same spaces, meaning you as a survivor may repeatedly cross paths with the person who assaulted you in corridors and communal areas (frequently) throughout the trial week. This was unexpected and can trigger intense anxiety and hypervigilance, making the experience feel unsafe even though it is focused on justice. My motivation is to warn others so they can prepare and to call for systemic change that separates survivors from defendants.EnjoyIf any of this resonates - I can be emailed on: hello@angiemcquillin.com



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/you-need-to-know-this-if-youre-goingsubstack:post:196670310Wed, 06 May 2026 15:26:38 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo342<![CDATA[This comment changed me - it has reshaped how I will approach my future content.]]>I’ll keep this simple. I make this content on youtube which I then transfer to a podcast for one reason - to reach people like this survivor who commented on my post.

Out of respect for her I’ve not disclosed all she said - but the impact was real.

Its reshaped the way I view and plan to create content on this channel in the future.

Enjoy.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/this-comment-changed-me-it-has-reshapedsubstack:post:196574428Tue, 05 May 2026 18:34:37 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo712<![CDATA[Life after a guilty verdict - what nobody talks about]]>“You must be happy he was sent down.” No actually - happy isn’t not the word. It’s not like that. Let me explain…..There is a regular assumption and misconception that once my r@pist was found guilty I'd be home drinking champagne feeling ‘happy’. What people miss is what myself and my family had to endure for 6 years before I got to that stage. After so much of a battle and so many twists and turns I felt almost emotionally numb and it's taken a while to rebalance myself over the last 6 months.I'm very grateful I got the verdict I but 'happy' isn't the word I use for the immediate aftermath. There is no ‘happy’ in being raped. No happy surviving the justice system for 6 years and I’m going to assume my r@pist isn’t feeling happy now either.In this podcast I open up about what 6 months after the verdict actually looks like.If any of this resonates with you - feel free to reach out. I can be emailed on hello@angiemcquillin.com.Enjoy.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/life-after-a-guilty-verdict-whatsubstack:post:196413759Mon, 04 May 2026 12:29:55 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo490<![CDATA[The day I reported him - what happened and what to expect...]]>This podcast documents the day I reported him to the police. It was nothing like I expected and was by far THE hardest par of the whole process because at the point of reporting I was battling with 23 years suppression and years telling myself Id never do it.It was nothing like I expected but I hope someone who is a silent survivor - and esp someone who is on the cusp of going to the police listens to this gains info of what to expect - the possible unexpected emotional side to it, the questions you may not be ready for and how it actually works.This podcast is the audio from a youtube video. Video available too if you’d rather watch as well as listen.

Angie



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/the-day-i-reported-him-what-happenedsubstack:post:195612978Mon, 27 Apr 2026 10:51:19 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo791<![CDATA[Coming face to face with my r@pist 2 hours before going on stand...]]>I share this podcast as a way to expose the types of things survivors are expected to deal with. This moment was uncomfortable and actually quite intimidating. The lack of care from the justice system in situations like this could jeopardise trials. Something so simple and easy to avoid created by a system that is designed to allegedly protect us.

After waiting 6 years to get to this day - it was the last thing I needed 2 hours before going on stand.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/coming-face-to-face-with-my-rpistsubstack:post:195339190Fri, 24 Apr 2026 19:03:38 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo392<![CDATA[The Stigmatised Meaning Behind Being Brave ]]>In this video - I address the belief that it is brave to speak up and share you have been seriously sexually assaulted! But I ask why? Has anyone even questioned why this is deemed brave?Have we considered why we think it is brave to share the thing that happened to us against our will?In this video I add my personal opinion to this hidden psychological aspect - and I share why I think ‘being brave’ is code for willingness to stand up against society expectations.Enjoy… !



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/the-stigmatised-meaning-behind-beingsubstack:post:194715965Sun, 19 Apr 2026 18:12:09 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo598<![CDATA[Why did it take so long to contact the police?]]>This question is the question I get asked the most - Why did it take you so long to go to the police? Why now? This is a topic I will address from the psychology side of what goes on behind the scenes of a silent survivor and what’s more the parts that are so massively misunderstood by so many. We carry myths and stigma in society and survivors are almost asked to justify why they handled the thing that they experienced (which they didn’t want to experience).

I address how loaded that question is, the blame, shame and all the inbetween in this podcast and the societal myths that accompany it. I hope you find this one interesting…



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/why-did-it-take-so-long-to-contactsubstack:post:194513924Fri, 17 Apr 2026 12:57:28 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo677<![CDATA[Reporting to Conviction - my step by step experience.]]>When I was living as a silent survivor - this podcast would have been valuable to hear. It wont be for everyone but is suited to any silent survivor in the process or about to step into the process. It's not legal advice - it is simply an account of my personal experience of the steps I underwent over 6 years to take the person who assaulted me from reporting to conviction.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/reporting-to-conviction-my-step-bysubstack:post:194511864Fri, 17 Apr 2026 12:49:59 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo1579<![CDATA[My Story - The Truth, The Whole Truth and Nothing but the Truth]]>This is my story of how I spent 23 years silent before reporting the man who seriously sexually assaulted me. It took 6 years in the justice system to get him to prison, 3 rearrange court dates, one hung jury and one retrial to finally get the justice I was seeking. This video / podcast details a lot of what went on and how it is to live as a silent survivor in the justice system.



This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com]]>https://unsilencedsurvivor.substack.com/p/my-story-the-truth-the-whole-truthsubstack:post:193715584Thu, 09 Apr 2026 18:03:14 GMTUnsilenced-Survivor's JourneyNo638