<![CDATA[Live from the Break Up Room Podcast]]>
asquill.substack.com]]>https://asquill.substack.com/podcastSubstackSat, 30 May 2026 13:01:11 GMThttps://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/8303162.rssAndrea SquillanteIt’d look cooler: "Andrea Andrews". Thought I was getting my "news anchor last name"… But I was dumped 3 days before my birthday, 18 months in. Chronicling my healing and hopefully helping you while you read it.episodicAndrea Squillanteasquill@substack.comYes<![CDATA[You Can’t Carry Forever on a Paper Plate]]>Your hands knew how to hold lives, but not us.



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And then have the person you trusted and changed for tell you you’re mere existence is now too much for them?

Well, I do.



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I became more than your Harley Quinn—

I became your Arkham Asylum. Holding it all in for you.



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Maybe it’s just honest.

It’s that last bit of frost that needs to melt before the healing season. And depending on how you look at it, it’s the end of cuffing season.

The frost is melting.

People want to rediscover themselves.

I’m coming to understand maybe Mr. Andrews needing more freedom.

Maybe February is just that last moment before the first blade of green grass is spotted. Before the flowers bloom and you get to too.

And maybe being left doesn’t mean I wasn’t worth staying for…

It just means I haven’t met someone yet who knows how to stay.

And for that, then this is definitely the best decision.



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But no one can look you up, Rescue Medic Andrews, and see how this tragedy effected you; how it changed you. No one, albeit maybe a few colleagues, knows how much this impacted your day-to-day and career choices. You told me everything… I assume, maybe, this was also one thing you also shared with your therapist.

My point is… While I was always the “cool girlfriend” excited to hear sick-call stories, the venting about skells and cancellations, and even enjoyed the smell of smoke that stuck to your clothing… I always worried about you. Listening to your stories (the few you’d tell) and reading about First Responder Trauma… That had a lasting effect on me and how I view things. I worried about you every day for so many reasons. And now that you let me go…

Who worries about you now? And… Is it okay if it’s still me?



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“I got one thing stuck in my mind… Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life…”

I’ve had so many say I did— dodge a bullet.

But I swore for 18 months that they didn’t know you the way I did. That you were the best thing— the “best one of the best ones” and quite possibly the love of my life… Why couldn’t I say that to you? Even after you’d said it to me…

“I just want to keep calling your name until you come back home…”



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You have 2 hours to message @woodysrightboot your opinions…



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