Cracking wide open

Falling and rising, releasing malignant attachment

The unperceivable ending

You can get what you want but what if you get it and you realize

None of it even mattered

Let me melt into the shoreline until the oceans breath pulls me under

I’ll just clasp my hands so tightly around the trees

Waiting

For them to wrap their skin around me

I lie down to the Earth in prayer

I lift my head to the heavens above

They’re laughing at me

I’m the fool

The magician

It’s all my perception

Shhh

Slow down

pay attention

the Earth

She’s speaking

Are you listening?

to take it like it takes the rocks with its waves

engulfing them

then gently brings them to shore

polished, brighter

I just have to remember to go there

Sit and watch her

And one day soon

She will take my broken heart

In her waves

Returning me to shore

Polished and brighter too

Am I asking for too much?

When I say, I want the man with the 700 sheep, herding in the rain

Yet calls me on his drive out

Maybe the call will drop

But, he will call

Am I asking for too much?

When I say, I want the man that listens through actions

12 pounds of butter

The book on Skywatching in Ancient cultures

Every item referenced to my passions

Am I asking for too much?

When I say, I want the man who has known me for three weeks

comes back from Germany with gifts selected for me

One who knows what he wants and shows it

I want the steady

I want the man

Who asks about my desires

My future

Who looks into me

Who says he’s kind of scared of me

The man that makes me nervous with how real he is

Scares me too..

I want the man with the brains

talk to me about native grasses

sheep saliva makes them sprout

death if you don’t move them by day five

Fuck.

Me.

Or I might die.

Am I asking for too much?

When I say, I want the man who bows to my bread

Shouts to the moon about how fantastic I am

Calls me brilliant and beautiful

Dances to Nina Simone with me

While cooking me dinner

Wrapping the shawl he got around me

Am I asking for too much?

When I say, I’d like to stay

I’d like this to never end

I promise I will love as good as he loves me

So tell me..

Am I asking for too much?

I want my lover obsessed with me

I mean

I want to be loved like rams during mating season

Fighting to the death

Letting the ravens gash out the eyes

When I say

I want my lover obsessed with me

I mean

I want to be shown how deep love can be

Bring me to my knees

Make me reckon with my fears

Through sheer presence

Sharper than a sword

A look that pierces out the tears

Shedding all previous years

When I say

I want my lover obsessed with me

I mean

I want to enter into a new reality

One where your strength stabilizes me

When I say

I want my lover obsessed with me

I mean

I want you to lead me to the pastures

I’ll be your sheep

Loyal to my shepherd