<![CDATA[Redeeming Disorder]]>
reiman.substack.com]]>https://reiman.substack.com/podcastSubstackMon, 11 May 2026 12:02:44 GMThttps://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/563880.rssReiman BledsoeReal Stories of Mental Disorder & Mental HealthepisodicReiman Bledsoereiman@substack.comYes<![CDATA[Ending Redeeming Disorder ― Tamar]]>Hello, listeners! Goodbye, Redeeming Disorder.

I’m ready to fully focus my creative energy in one direction, which means it’s time for my first major creative project to end. Worlds of thanks to Tamar — legend in my life, lead producer of Light & Shadows, and the woman for the job of turning the page.

We talk herbalism, Kambo medicine, medicine at large, creative flow and beginner’s mind. We also talk about our personal growth through this past year of knowing each other. This past year… these past months, weeks, days… What a time.

As great swathes of Latin America burn, the Vilcabamba valley has been filled with smoke these past seven days since the Light & Shadows team returned from filming in the jungle, and we’re slowing down our pace of releasing videos. Forty-nine days after beginning our Friday releases and planning to release a pilot episode on December 20, we have to say that the pilot will come in 2025, and that no plan is surefire in these fiery times. Nonetheless, we’ll continue doing our best.

I’m grateful to have already filmed some beautiful places that have recently burned down. In right time, I’ll be grateful to bring you “Epic 1” (“episodes” are so legacy-TV) of our genre-bending docureality series. And, in the meantime, I’m grateful to uphold our commitment to bring you at least something every Friday.

As many of the world’s unnatural orders break down, and as we go through personal breakdowns (breakdown-breakthroughs, more aptly), life can feel entirely chaotic. Upholding our true commitments can feel challenging. Maintaining order in our lives can feel impossible. Our plans are jokes to God-Goddess, paradoxes to the reality of the present moment, which is all we can ever know for sure. Yet, we make plans to bring our intentions into being, and we return to our truest intentions.

Creating Light & Shadows is a calling for us — an intention to which we’ll continually return, an order from God-Goddess themself. Our pilot epic won’t adhere to the order we had in mind, but Light & Shadows will continue. We will continue to create for you.



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Rebecca Tzigany returns to Light & Shadows as she says goodbye to Vilcabamba and as we begin releasing our content regularly, every Friday.

We hope you continue to get to know us every Friday, leading up to the release of our Pilot Epic (episode) on 20 December, 2024.



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* Wayra Vibra Instagram

* Catherine’s Instagram

* Please Pass the Bliss

* People of the Sun



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* Zeus the Husky channel and video:

* Hofstede Cultural Analysis: the three countries discussed, the general tool.

* The Authentic Observer youtube channel.

* Cultural Map of the United States.

* The book that the map is based on.

* Documentary called Quantum Communication / Mind Science Kept Hidden:

* Autobiographical stuff.co.nz article series by New Zealand author Catherine Dolan about the toxicity and brutality of NZ society.

* Global Innovation Index 2022 global map visualization.

* Mark Passio's Presentation Playlist on his youtube channel.

* Nick’s youtube channel.

These links are included per Nick’s request; I endorse nothing, and trust you to make your own judgments.



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Video of Our Conversation on YouTube



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Links from the Episode:


Video of Our Conversation on YouTube


Video of Our Conversation on BitChute


Rapper Played in Background for a Minute


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Links from the Episode:


Video Tour of Phil's and Suzannah's Land on YouTube


Video Tour of Phil's and Suzannah's Land on BitChute
 
Eternaculture at Canción del Corazón (the name of Phil’s and Suzannah’s center, which translates to “Song of the Heart”)


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Links from the Episode:


Half the Sky by Nicholas Kristof and Sheryl WuDunn
 
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My interview with Ṣadé marks a point of pause for Redeeming Disorder. I’ll be back later this summer once I’ve set myself up to podcast from southern Ecuador! There, I’ll be practicing, writing and learning about regenerative farming and permaculture.


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Intro Music: All is Well by Austin Basham


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Links from the Episode:


Harvard Implicit Bias Test
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The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.
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The Power of Vulnerability by Brené Brown
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Braving the Wilderness by Brené Brown
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Adverse Childhood Experience (ACE) Ted Talk Ṣadé mentions
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Adverse Childhood Experience (ACE) Journal Article Ṣadé Mentions
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Social Baseline Theory: The Role of Social Proximity in Emotion and Economy of Action by Beckes and Coan
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Cognitively Based Compassion Training (CBCT) at the Emory Center for Contemplative Science and Compassion-Based Ethics with Lobsang Tenzin Negi
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Trailer for Kiss the Ground


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Check out beautiful crafts made of reclaimed wood by Nikki’s family at Lunar Canyon!
 
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Jonas Otsuji competed on Survivor: One World a decade ago. The deep depression he recalls, however, became a challenge for him long before reality TV, and continued to challenge him after the show. Jonas speaks to the factors that made the challenge even harder – junk food, consumerism, social media’s distortion of reality – as well as the factors that were healing, like practicing gratitude.


Through practicing gratitude, Jonas practices happiness, and views happiness as a state we’re fully empowered to enter. I generally consider “happiness” to be a terrible word, because it represents about ten things at once (excitement, pleasure, connection, fulfillment, contentment, etc.), but I consider Jonas’s notion of “happiness” to be a realistic one, emphasizing gratitude, equanimity and peace. Choosing this peace over consumerism, digital escapism and the many trappings of the modern world can be tough, but in this interview, Jonas shares how he’s managed it.


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Children of the Dump — Bless the Children


Books Jonas Mentions:
Sugar Blues by William Duffy
Attacking Anxiety and Depression by Lucinda Bassett
Feeling Good by David Burns


Project MKUltra on Wikipedia
Operation Mockingbird
Video about politics from my email to Amanda Rabinowitz
Century of the Self Film — BBC


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Sadly, her childhood home didn't, and a whirlwind of family struggles prolonged the intense stress she was under. The tornado and its aftermath ultimately amounted to a battle with PTSD, the awareness of which Nicole advocates during our interview.


Nicole also discusses her relationship to the labeling aspect of 'PTSD' and her views of mental health and mental disorder more broadly. Please enjoy our conversation, and if you have a story of your own you'd like to share, you can do so through this form.


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The storytelling of this episode is beautiful, thanks to Michael's skills as an orator and writer. In his most recent book, I Am Not Your Enemy, he visits Israel, Palestine, Northern Ireland and South Africa interviewing activists, peacebuilders and former combatants about their personal stories of conflict, justice, and reconciliation. As Michael puts it, "we need stories that cultivate empathy and tell the truth. We need stories to save us from our fear."


You can find I Am Not Your Enemy and the rest of Michael's work on his website


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  • Nature vs. Nurture

  • Categorical vs. Dimensional Thinking

  • Suppression of vs. Identification with Mental "Illnesses"

  • Collectivist vs. Individualist Perspectives

  • Cultural Context vs. Universality


As a whole, Amanda's interview underscores dichotomies within the whole of psychology — dichotomies in which her approach contrasts with that of our last guest, Dr. Eric Maisel. Where Eric calls disorders made-up, psychiatry corrupt and its systems illegitimate, Amanda calls disorders sociologically valuable, psychiatry complicated and its systems worth working within. I don't pretend to know who is right, or if either of these psychologists is right. I don't particularly think that's important. In Eric Maisel and Amanda Rabinowitz I see two people carrying out a labor of love, with tremendous intelligence and compassion, impactfully helping others.


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Does mental illness actually exist? Are SSRIs medicine, or rather just “chemicals with strong effects?” What is medicine?


We addressed the first of those questions in a conversation with Eric back in 2017, and in this interview, I join Eric in-person in San Francisco to dig into the second question. Finally, on the eve before I journey into the Amazon to work with Ayahuasca, I share some reflections of mine on the third question. In this episode of Redeeming Disorder, those questions all prove to be fascinating launching pads into a discussion of labels, language, institutional (and psychiatric) authority, meaning-making and life purpose.


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Guided meditations 1-12 will remain up on the podcast for your use whenever you like, and in the meantime, it feels good to get back to real stories of mental disorder. Today's story is a special one whose subject matter hits home for me: Todd Herzog's struggle as an alcoholic.


Todd shares the unsung side of his story in this interview; while downward spirals get a lot of attention, upward spirals are stories worth telling. I'm grateful to Todd for doing the telling, and living as an example of crawling out of the hole that is alcoholism. I grew up seeing my dad in that same hole, where he remained until passing away one year ago. On the anniversary of getting that sad call from my sister, I'm joined (and interviewed) by my partner Kailey to talk about what has come up for me the past few days.


I hope you enjoy these conversations, I hope you have a fantastic New Year's Eve, and HAPPY 2021!


PS — I've mentioned a number of books in recent episodes, namely today's episode. While the cascade of recommendations won't continue, I will share links to the books mentioned, for those interested:
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In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts & When the Body Says No by Gabor Mate
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Awareness by Anthony De Mello
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Breath by James Nestor
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PPS — No, the journalist, ayahuasquero and Jesuit priest above are not paying me to recommend their books.


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I’m wishing you love and well-being in both practice and life.


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As you’ve learned in 10 days, attention is a wildly unstable force, and we don’t always get to choose where it goes. In life and in practice, the light of our attention will shine unpredictably on object after object. Can we "choicelessly" accept whatever emerges from the dark?


This meditation’s opening quote is from the Buddha.


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You will choose 1) your primary object of attention; 2) your use of mental noting techniques; and 3) the degree of openness in your practice. Today I guide you into guiding yourself; tomorrow we take your self-directed practice to a new frontier: Open Awareness.


This meditation’s opening quote is often attributed, without much evidence, to the existentialist writer Albert Camus. While I wish I were quoting Camus, who wrote one of my favorite novels (L'Étranger, or “The Stranger”), this quote’s true source isn’t known.


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Your head? Heart? Gut? We continue deeper into embodied practice today, working with exercises of touch points, precise attention and body scans.


This meditation’s opening quote is from Luke 17:21 of the Holy Bible.


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This meditation’s opening quote is from the Bhagavad Gita.


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The opening quote is from the 17th century French mathematician, philosopher and Catholic theologian, Blaise Pascal.


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Feeling, Hearing, Seeing, Smelling, Tasting.
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Thinking (including "analyzing," "remembering," "imagining," etc.).
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In (or "rising," or alternative).
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Out (or "falling," or alternative).
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This meditation’s opening (and closing) haiku is from the 17th century Zen monk and poet, Matsuo Basho.


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This meditation’s opening quote is from Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, a Hindu guru of nondualism.


May all beings be happy. ❤️


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Today we introduce the technique of “mental noting” to create some space from our thoughts. This helps us see a thought for what it is — an ephemeral something-or-other that comes and goes, and doesn’t need to be a problem!


This meditation’s opening quote is from a film called the Samadhi Movie, which I tweeted out back in 2019, and still highly recommend:


Part I — https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bw9zSMsKcwk
Part II — https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQL6qcGqQ0Y


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By counting the breaths, we can cut off the momentum of the trains of thought that pull us away, invite a sense of calm, and establish the conditions necessary for insight.


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This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com]]>https://reiman.substack.com/p/guided-meditation-1-here-now-this-1f3https://pinecast.com/guid/d02974f2-c96c-4454-ab66-81ff7e478e5aThu, 17 Dec 2020 11:31:00 GMTReiman BledsoeBegin your journey with this simple 10-minute meditation about being here, now, with this — the breath.Yes999<![CDATA[#31: Guided Meditation Series]]>There has never been a better time to start meditating than right now.


It's no panacea cure for mental disorder, but meditation can transform your consciousness and your experience of the world. In this 12-Day Meditation Challenge, we start from square one; Guided Meditation 1 is an easeful 10-minute introduction. The lengths of our meditations will increase gradually over the days, but will only exceed 30 minutes once, averaging 23 minutes. Also increasing will be the meditative skillset you build as we traverse the landscape of meditation, covering the major styles of practice and leaving you fully prepared to continue practicing.


Happy practicing, safe journeying and looking forward to seeing you in Guided Meditation 1.


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If we evolved to go through childhood in community, then today, teachers are the closest thing kids have to those 30 aunts and uncles that the kiddos had back in hunter-gatherer days. Beyond figuring out childcare ahead of their time, hunter-gatherer tribes also lived communally and transparently, less able to “put on a face,” or hide a health issue, than we are today. Today we often know little about the personal lives of our teachers, employers or even co-workers; we have no idea who might be silently struggling.


In this era of compartmentalization and stigma, someone willing to buck the trends and vulnerably share their story uplifts those around them more than they could know. I’m honored to bring you this interview with just such a person — my teacher and friend, Cullen Sacha.


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WaitButWhy on Procrastination (Referenced in Episode):


Why Procrastinators Procrastinate — https://waitbutwhy.com/2013/10/why-procrastinators-procrastinate.html


The Procrastination Matrix — https://waitbutwhy.com/2015/03/procrastination-matrix.html


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We touch on the politics of mental health — recent legislation like mental health parity, programs like crisis intervention training, contemporary discussions of gun violence and mental health — as well as the importance of open-mindedness and the ethos of the Socratic Paradox, “I know that I know nothing.”


NAMI Website: https://www.nami.org/
The Socratic Paradox Wikipedia Page: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/I_know_that_I_know_nothing


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Invisible Lions Podcast: https://www.lauraboach.com/invisible-lions-podcast


"Monkeys Pay Per View" Research Paper: https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S096098220500093X


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Empathy is both Olivia's superpower and her kryptonite, allowing her to easily connect with psychiatric patients, but also saddling her with a great emotional burden when she does so. Listen to hear how Olivia strives to overcome the curse of empathy while paying the blessing of empathy forward.


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~


Death Wish of a 12-Year-Old | Lauren Schugg | TEDxBaldwinHighSchool


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He tried over fifty different combinations of medications. He tried electric shock therapy / ECT, which I didn’t even realize still occurred in hospitals in 2018 (when we did this interview). He tried everything, until he was explicitly told by a psychiatrist that there were no more options. Luckily, Eric eventually found an integrative psychologist, more tools and many practices that have saved his mental health. He recovered from the depths of despair, and now leads a prominent mental health advocacy movement, sharing stories (like his own!) of hope.


The #SameHere movement brings athletes, celebrities and experts together to share the inclusive message that #5in5 have mental health challenges of some sort. To learn more and find mental health resources, check out the site for Eric's organization, the #SameHere Global Mental Health Movement: "We're All A Little Crazy"


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This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com]]>https://reiman.substack.com/p/24-disorders-diagnoses-comorbidity-442https://pinecast.com/guid/a3c6a09d-d226-4c52-b405-aad107ee4dbdThu, 22 Oct 2020 19:21:25 GMTReiman BledsoeHow do we negotiate identity in the midst of mental disorder?Yes4839<![CDATA[#23: The Brain ~ Gut ~ Holobiome Connection — Dr. Steven Gundry on Diet]]>"All disease starts in the Gut." — Hippocrates, the 'father of modern medicine.'


Whether you're curious about fasting and crazy life-on-mars experiments, or looking for an opportunity to revamp your diet and improve your health, there's something for everyone here. Steven Gundry, per his bestselling book "The Plant Paradox," is a cum laude graduate of Yale University, with special honors in human biological and social evolution. Dr. Gundry has a long career in medicine; he graduated from the Medical College of Georgia alpha omega alpha, completed residencies in general surgery and cardiothoracic surgery at the University of Michigan and served as professor and chairman of cardiothoracic surgery at Loma Linda University School of Medicine. Today, Gundry is focused on his research as well as his clinical practice — the dietary and nutriceutical reversal of most diseases (including neurological conditions and mental health conditions!) through sophisticated blood tests and blood flow measurements, maximizing his patients' health spans and longevity.


Next week, we'll return to the vulnerable conversations with another firsthand story of mental disorder. For this week, though, enjoy this informative and thought-provoking interview with Steven Gundry.


Dr. Gundry's concise YES/NO food lists


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Links:



  • National Suicide Hotline

  • Porn Resource

  • OnlyFans: After some contemplation, I’ve decided to (reluctantly) decline Brice’s offer to manage an OnlyFans profile for me. I apologize for your disappointment.


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If anyone is up for such a wild conversation, it's my guest Daniel Ingram. Daniel has meditated for over 25 years, teaching around the world while working as an emergency care doctor at home, and finding the time to write the book "Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha."


Richard Hatch, the original Survivor winner, pops in just past the 4-hour mark to offer some healthy skepticism and a surprising personal story that dovetails with the larger conversation.


TIME STAMPS:


24:41 – The Dark Side of Meditation


34:32 – Categorical vs. Dimensional Thinking about Mental Disorder


54:18 – Spencer's First Mystical Experience Meditating


1:12:30 – Why Ego isn’t 100% “Bad”


1:14:34 – Mystical Math: e, π, i and the Fractal Nature of Meditative Insight


1:32:37 – The Stigma of Talking about the Deep End of Meditation


1:44:23 – Why it’s Tough to Talk About our Internal Experiences


1:52:55 – (Admittedly Crude) Advice for Getting into Meditation with Mental Health Challenges


2:20:32 – The Disconnect between Spirituality and Modern Medicine


3:04:03 – Psychedelic and Ergotism Origin Stories of Buddhism & Christianity


3:20:15 – The MMA Analogy: Mixing Spiritual Practices


3:23:55 – Daniel’s Dream of Secular, Cross-Tradition, Longitudinal Meditation Research


3:27:30 – Today’s Psychedelic Renaissance


3:37:05 – Hardcore Practices: Fire Kasina Meditation, Darkroom Retreats


4:01:37 – How Much Depth of Knowledge is Appropriate?


4:06:08 – Segue to Conversation with Richard Hatch


5:40:27 – Downsides of Conceptual Knowledge


5:48:17 – My M.A. Thesis Findings on the Usefulness (or Lack Thereof) of the Maps


6:00:01 – Meditation Cultures in Asia vs. the U.S.


6:08:55 – Double-Edged Swords: The Good and the Bad of Everything.



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Since beginning his journey with mental health advocacy in 2006, Jamie has learned a thing or two about how to share hope with others and how to get help when you need it. Listen in to hear how a simple of message of hope has transformed countless people.



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Listen in as Nick shares about his life, and performs some of his most popular works.



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Eric is a former family and marriage therapist, frequent Psychology Today contributor, and renowned creativity coach. Suffice it to say, he's an expert in his own right and has a lot to add to this conversation.



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Not only did Hannah make it far into her season, she was also vulnerable and talked about her anxiety. Listen in as she talks about her experience with anxiety before, during, and after her Survivor experience.



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This interview is a little different because we talk less about specific mental disorders, and more about the complexity of human beings. You won’t want to miss Suzanne’s passion about all that’s going on in politics, churches, and the mental health world.


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How can we learn to accept ourselves and others in the midst of pain and suffering? How can we use mental diagnoses and personality tests, without holding too tightly to the results?

In this episode, Ian, Laura, and Spencer cover questions like these to better understand the complexity of people and mental disorders.



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What looked like laziness and disinterest to her professors and classmates, was in actuality a full-blown battle with obsessive thoughts and behaviors.

Listen as she shares her journey with OCD, and the help she found that has transformed her life.

If you or a loved one is experiencing OCD, here are some resources that may help:

What do you think about Caety's story? Can you relate, or have you experienced something different? Comment below or tweet Spencer and Laura.



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Out of these struggles, he found the healing power of mindfulness.


Listen to the first episode of Redeeming Disorder's 2nd season to receive inspiration, and a crash course on how to use mindfulness in your daily life. Our interview with Tyler will give you yet another perspective on mental illness, and the many therapies and tools available if you need help.


Here are links to some of the things we mentioned in this episode:




Also, be sure to check out more music from Hetty and her newest album, In Search of the Sea. Big thanks to Hetty for letting us use her music for our podcast!



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Links from this episode:




Connect with us:




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Links from this episode:

Connect with Dave:

Connect with us:



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Links from this episode:

Contact us:



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Devin Terry is a senior clinical therapist at Nashville's Oasis Center, where she helps teens in crisis through individual, family, and group counseling. In this episode, she answers a lot of common questions surrounding counseling. Devin provides practical advice for people both in the trenches and sidelines of mental disorder.

Here are some of the questions Devin answers:

  • What are the benefits and challenges of individual, family, and group counseling?
  • What's therapy like and who could benefit?
  • How do you communicate your needs to people who don't understand your disorder?
  • Why is connection important for healing?
  • How does one build connection?

The opening essay was written and read by Sara Grove, editor of Raw Food Magazine and creator of Daily Happy Actions. Connect with her on Instagram @dailyhappyactions.

Links from the episode:

Contact us:



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Articles and Links we mention:


This School Replaced Detention with Meditation


Homeschooling and Socialization

The Truth about Intelligence — School of Greatness Podcast

Meditation Might Rival Medication — Forbes


The Chemical Imbalance Theory: Dead or Alive?


Resources:


Suicide Prevention Lifeline


ADD, Anxiety, and Depression Help



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  • What it feels like when a parental figure has a mental illness

  • The repercussions of not talking about mental illness

  • Genetically passed down mental illness vs. learned behaviors

  • The freedom that comes with speaking honestly


Resources and links from this episode:



Check out AJ's books: Yes, It's Hot in Here & How Fantasy Sports Explain the World
Watch AJ in the Errol Morris short film, Being Mr. Met



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  • How relationships change in the midst of disorder

  • The emotional and practical difficulty of caring for someone

  • Early childhood counseling

  • Professionally interacting with those struggling with mental disorder

  • The use of labels and the need for acceptance and openness

  • Is there another way we can serve the mentally ill?


Links from Episode 2:



Resources for those struggling with mental disorder:




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Links from Episode 1:



Please join our conversation and quest to better understand mental disorder!



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