<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0" xmlns:itunes="http://www.itunes.com/dtds/podcast-1.0.dtd"><channel><title><![CDATA[American Elegy  Podcast]]></title><description><![CDATA[A place for ghosts, memory, myth, and American grief. Poems, essays, stories, and strange happenings. Collected by Emily Ergenbright.  <br/><br/><a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/podcast</link><generator>Substack</generator><lastBuildDate>Tue, 16 Jun 2026 05:45:42 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/4871443.rss" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><author><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></author><copyright><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></copyright><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><webMaster><![CDATA[emilyergenbright@substack.com]]></webMaster><itunes:new-feed-url>https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/4871443.rss</itunes:new-feed-url><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:subtitle>A place for ghosts, memory, myth, and American grief. Poems, stories, and strange happenings. 

Written and collected by Emily Ergenbright. </itunes:subtitle><itunes:type>episodic</itunes:type><itunes:owner><itunes:name>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:name><itunes:email>emilyergenbright@substack.com</itunes:email></itunes:owner><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:category text="Society &amp; Culture"/><itunes:category text="Fiction"/><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/6e7be4e7567624289a0045f5e2bee4cd.jpg"/><item><title><![CDATA[The Legend of The Crick Fox ]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>Once, a man who thought he was a king, came to trade with the Illuminaires. 

Draped in fur and greed he came with gold as tall as he- 

With great demands that were but masks for pleas for mercy. 

And the Illuminaires, being generous, did this favor for the rich man, but their price was this: 
<em>
Take your gold, and forget this place exists.</em> 

But men, being unable to resist, returned, to demand another favor, this time with even more gold, sure that all he needed was more money to buy them. 

And so begins the final story of the Illuminaires - the Nature Borns. </p><p><strong>The Legend of the Crick Fox </strong>

We cursed a man with Appetite, 

When he drank Crick Mountain dry; 

Stripped him of his earthly home, 

But did not grant him leave to die. 



We snatched the fire from his heart, 

Bade him use it warm his meat and hands 

Told the crick fox - run quickly now -

You’ll find no peace in these new lands. 



But he found a broker somewhere 

in the corners of these woods,

He traded a new deal in blood and gold

And returned twice as tall he stood. 



The tide changed against us somehow 

Though we had always paid our due, 

Now we skulk the earth apart and searching 

For our way back to the Great Wide Open

To Illuminate the Path Home for You. </p><p></p><p></p><p></p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/the-legend-of-the-crick-fox</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:180570604</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 03 Dec 2025 12:30:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/180570604/d3df606f94fac97af613b2dc5015797b.mp3" length="2267369" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>189</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/180570604/31b1860439a587bb520b366b59fb5ddf.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Invocation]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>Once, in a dream, I found myself in the forest listening to a strange man tell me a story. 

He walked around a fire, drinking from a cup carved from a horn; covered in streaks of midnight mimicking tree branches that curved up his body, and across his eyes. 

As he came closer and retreated from the fire, stumbling as he told his tale, he looked like he was welcomed by the forest. </p><p>
He told me the story of Curiosity, 
The gluttonous witch of the woods. 

One night, the witch was praying to the gods 
to grant her the knowledge 
of the truth of all things,   
When she heard a knock at the door. 


When she opened it, she found herself face to face with a Wolf;

The lion of the forest dark.  


She asked the Wolf:
“Did the gods send you to me?” 


And the Wolf replied:

 “Look into my eyes and see the truth, though it may be short lived.” 


She stared into the golden yellow, 
and in that moment came to understand 
the fundamental truths of the universe: 

We are all animals running from death;
Tonight, she would be dinner - and 
The gods have a wicked sense of humor. </p><p><strong><em>Author’s Note:</em></strong><em> If the tagline sounded familiar, you probably recognized it from </em><a target="_blank" href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/fireflies"><em>Fireflies</em></a><em>, an important lullaby from The Way. </em></p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/invocation</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:177219961</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 27 Oct 2025 00:00:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/177219961/57da16f910bd3d755f4d8b9dc1eccaa3.mp3" length="1890892" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>158</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/177219961/58c31cdf4c2ff39b9534c4824537338a.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[A Strange Time ]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>This poem was an exploration on the way guilt and grief can settle into the sediment of a family, and how love becomes another form of survival.</p><p>I wrote it thinking about a specific conflict but it could be about any generation of soldiers, in any war, returning different than they when they left. Unrecognizable to themselves, and the people who love them the most.  Every war leaves behind a version of that story — and, in one way or another, we all grow up in its echo.</p><p>This poem is for all the fathers who came back just men, after all.</p><p><strong><em>Author’s Note:</em></strong><em> If you’d prefer to read along, find the original post </em><a target="_blank" href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/when-you-live-by-the-gun-you-die"><em>here.</em></a><em> </em></p><p></p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/a-strange-time</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:176295553</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 16 Oct 2025 21:00:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/176295553/aabb74940b35ff25d2e5cfe7807dbe1e.mp3" length="2017847" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>168</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/176295553/368c0ba8074b84dc50f0739f1dbda8ca.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Our Girl]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>If you’ve been to small town America, you know this place. </p><p>You may live here. </p><p>You may have been friends with Summer. </p><p>You may even miss it, from time to time. How it used to be. Before. </p><p>But - do you know? </p><p>Who killed the town?



Was it

The Stranger who

Came in the night

All those summers ago,

And killed

Our girl? Left her

in the crick bed

picked dry as her daddy’s pockets?

It seems like

It all started going wrong

After that.



Wasn’t that when everyone started to forget

To whisper behind their folded hands?

Playin’ jump rope gossip-grapevine

With her ligature marks?



<em>You know, last summer she got caught stealing

Eyeliner from the Osco’s</em>

A deck of cards cracks

On a screen porch patio on 1st avenue

While ladies lunch.



<em>Well I heard she’d been arrested before -

Out at a cornfield party, drinking, of course-

And where were those parents….you just never know about people anymore.</em>

Isn’t that about the time they all started taking

deadly aim with crossed wires?



<em>Well, of course you heard what they’ve said ?

About the autopsy results?

They say, they think…</em>

A glass of sweet tea sweats

At the accusations in the church basement.



Was it Walmart that killed the town?

That helped us save money and live better -

Ran mom and pops shops off

The town square where we used to

Scoop the loop every Friday night

Watch all the farm girls with those strong, long legs

That know just how to hold a stallion- 

But can’t quite keep up with the minimum wage.



Or was it the company store?

Paid our ancestors with scrips so low

It chained us to the lack in the land -

Told us our worth was as hollow as the holler

When they hollered for that black gold

and the only sound that came back to them

Was regret and retribution. 



Was it the prison?

They sent all our uncles and brothers up state-

In and out of rehab with 120.00 and

three condoms in their pockets;

They got hooked on painkillers after high school

When they hurt their shoulder

in a football game in college

Or their back in that factory job

Or some other thing in that war

Like his mind, maybe -



But anyway, he just can’t afford to keep

Dad’s dreams on his back anymore.

So he bottles his rage like whiskey, writes his own

Supplemental script;

Puts on his nicest belt buckle,

Takes his pickup with a bed full of

His future’s empty promises

and his momma’s charm

And goes cattle calling city girls

who don’t know any better -



They’ve never seen what becomes

of those front porch gospel ghosts

After the screen door closes and

the smell of sulfur

Soaks into a lace tablecloth.



They don’t know what it took to be her.

She won May Day Queen, that year she died.

Got pulled down Main Street at 5mph

On a float she made herself,

Behind her grandad’s Lincoln continental

Sun-in hair done up like Farrah Fawcett, 

Smile warm as summer;

Hands folded in her lap,

Ankles crossed, back straight and perfect wave.

Her mother’s lipstick in the glovebox

And grandma’s vintage perfume.

She was the most beautiful thing this town her parents

Ever did.

<em>And don’t you think she deserves a little justice

For that?</em>



Was it the FBI?

Who let a serial killer move from town to town

picking it clean of its town squares 

and summer dreams,

Coming and going like an F5

And leaving an empty shell,

Right next to the prison

For us

to stare at in the distance-



But then again -

They work for that “ol man” Uncle Sam

Who sold us to them?

<em>Like he was runnin’ girls or somethin’. 

You believe that? You believe they’d
</em>
<em>Turn</em> us out <em>on us</em>

<em>Like that?</em>



We live in a small town -

Nobody is ever really a Stranger here

With an unsolved murder

hanging over it’s head -

Won’t someone help us

Figure out who killed Our Girl?

She was so important to us.



We’re almost <strong>sure </strong>her name

was Summer.</p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/our-girl-4e4</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:175247968</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 10 Oct 2025 22:00:42 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/175247968/103382e337f97d43b7dedebc4f313b74.mp3" length="4564472" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>380</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/175247968/6e7be4e7567624289a0045f5e2bee4cd.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[In Defense of Ginger]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>She did tell him,  
She didn’t love him.  

He did know 
All
The stories,  
Around Las Vegas. 

He knew what really drove her - 
What really
 moved 
her -

And he knew 
it wasn’t him. 

Knew only the safety of 
Shimmering jewels
and stacks of cash, 
Made her feel like 
she could buy 
her way out of trouble. 

She always knew, 
The bottom could drop out 
at any time. 

Men like Sam Rothstein 
Think 
Possession 
is 9/10ths of the law. 

But you  
Can’t cage the dazzle 
that made him come 
meandering 
over her way;
Hoping for a chance to bask 
in her glittering 
casino lights. 

My god, 
He destroyed 
Such a beautiful thing</p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/in-defense-of-ginger-8b1</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:175077383</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 02 Oct 2025 03:00:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/175077383/cee6cf3ee96d1ac44deab3a1e28439a5.mp3" length="1627578" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>136</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/175077383/6e7be4e7567624289a0045f5e2bee4cd.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Wake ]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>When you were young, your mother 

said she could see out of the back of her head. 

But even she had to sleep, sometimes. 

Offering you a quiet respite 

From her watchful gaze. 



She taught you everything you know, like: 

Each half of an orcas brain 

alternates being awake, 

So it never loses consciousness

And never stops swimming. 



A few years ago, you saw the story 

of a mother orca who’d lost her calf 

and spent the next 17 days 

Filling the ocean with her cries. 



Swimming with its body, 

dwarfed by its mothers grief- 

She kept pushing him above the water,

Trying to will him to move, to 

Dance on the waves like she dreamed. 



Your mother called and asked 

If you’ve been eating well, 

When the last time was

 you got your oil changed. 

If you’re still seeing that guy who

made you cry at 2 in the afternoon 

In the break room. 



If you wouldn’t mind 

Sharing your location with her like you used to, 

Only for a little while - 


It’s the only way she can keep an eye on you anymore. 



This year, the orca lost another calf, 

and began her mourning 

once again. 



Does she wish she could know 

the comforting blackness of sleep- 

wish that she could close her eyes and not 

see a broken promise? 



Your mother taught you, 

Female orcas can live for 90 years. 



Imagine carrying that 

For all that time- 

Without even a dream to save you

From the grief of empty spaces, 

Swimming beside you 

In the futures wake. </p><p><p>Storm season has made its way to American Elegy ! Make sure to spread the news</p></p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/wake-d2e</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:169424590</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 21 Aug 2025 13:00:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/169424590/e0af1c073b47720684007b93903643ea.mp3" length="1972080" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>164</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/169424590/6e7be4e7567624289a0045f5e2bee4cd.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[A Morning Dream ]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>Lord, if I have a daughter, 

let her live two lifetimes 

and see me married in both of them. 


In one, let him leave me - 

and let me not be crushed.


In the other, let him love me 

like a homecoming.


But somehow, God,  let me show her 

Love is a gift, 

and not sustenance 


It only needs her to survive.</p><p> </p><p><p>Storm Season has made its way to American Elegy. Make sure you spread the news. </p></p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/a-morning-dream-a85</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:169423441</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 07 Aug 2025 13:00:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/169423441/01f811cbaaf963b83c3fcba5a30a0a57.mp3" length="1332289" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>111</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/169423441/9605f96a20a7f1ab14f33d9f9a5f9a7b.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Afterthought]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>I wrote this poem a year ago. It's about the experience when you enter a new relationship, where honied smiles feel like salt on the wound, congratulations feel like curses, and invitations to reminisce feel like a trap. "Afterthought" is about what it means when the past comes back to haunt you, even in moments of new joy.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>As though they caught the scent of death, The vultures of relationships past descend; one by one to offer heartfelt Congratulations on my happy coupling. You look positively Radiant Glowing Abundant - as if you’re about to burst- Can’t we have just one more Bite of you?</p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/afterthought-013</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:168317038</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 24 Jul 2025 15:00:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/168317038/88dd026cf1c33050a2d2a9d585c50ed5.mp3" length="824156" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>69</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/168317038/e7a76df0047cbd2f9176170cb9f8de37.jpg"/></item><item><title><![CDATA[Love Drunk]]></title><description><![CDATA[<p>Love Drunk</p><p></p><p>This piece started at my grandmother's breakfast table, and ended in a whiskey glass. It's about wanting more than what's easy, waiting for what burns true, and knowing that some love stories are better aged with time. </p><p></p><p>“You held out for champagne, and didn’t even get beer.” My grandmother says to me one morning over breakfast. But I don’t think I’d like the bitter aftertaste of poison, slipped in one, versus the other. I’d rather wait for whiskey To mature in the barrel - Expanding and contracting with time, The Angel’s share a smoke signal Guiding me towards his scorching burn. If I must drown in my desire, I’d rather it taste like aged fire.</p><p></p><p>New Poems. Shared Blood. Ongoing Stories. Share so others can follow.</p><p></p> <br/><br/>This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit <a href="https://emilyergenbright.substack.com?utm_medium=podcast&#38;utm_campaign=CTA_1">emilyergenbright.substack.com</a>]]></description><link>https://emilyergenbright.substack.com/p/love-drunk-fa8</link><guid isPermaLink="false">substack:post:167869676</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Emily Ergenbright]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 10 Jul 2025 12:38:47 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://api.substack.com/feed/podcast/167869676/55d676315fb1d1e7d62d5602799fc2e2.mp3" length="953305" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:author>Emily Ergenbright</itunes:author><itunes:explicit>No</itunes:explicit><itunes:duration>79</itunes:duration><itunes:image href="https://substackcdn.com/feed/podcast/4871443/post/167869676/6e7be4e7567624289a0045f5e2bee4cd.jpg"/></item></channel></rss>