The song you hear, Khak-e-Pak, is from her album, Golrang (گلرنگ)— “a meditative journey inspired by the quiet resilience and vibrant energy of plant life, reflecting the depth of Persian heritage and its timeless connection to the natural world. Recorded, produced, and mixed by Maryam Qudus at the renowned Tiny Telephone studio, this album was crafted on analog tape, giving each track an authentic, immersive warmth.”

Moradi was born in Tehran, Iran and spent her younger years immersed at the intersection of devotion and creative expression. Her mother, an artist, and her father, the Pujari of the only Hindu temple in the city, immersed her in a cultural legacy that has survived for millennia despite all odds.

It is clear when you are in Rohini’s presence on screen or in person that joy and effervescing love are her most natural and apparent states. You can’t help but be pulled into her compassionate embrace and crystalline wisdom. In this time of great global upheaval, these are qualities vital to cut through the confusion, grief and fear troubling us all.

Teaching the practice and theory of the Akashic Records is something Rohini has prepared for her whole life and freely offers insight on to her digital community. Her courses are thorough, authentic and contextualized culturally so that the system of theory is preserved.

I’ve had the pleasure of studying with Rohini and getting to know her over the last 6 years. It was in the final stages of one of her first practitioner trainings for the Akashic Records in 2020 that I first came up with the idea of Reality Streaming. Last year, I began her final teacher training. As I prepare to teach and carry on this lineage, Rohini has found a sense of completion in her own teaching.

This summer, she exhibited work in the show “Of Spirit and Song” in Olema, California. In Spring of 2026, her first book on the Akasha will be available to the public. A project is unfolding in new and sometimes unexpected ways each time I see Rohini, a lesson in allowing our creations to live through us and not be controlled by us.

There is so much newness on the horizon, yet the projects and vision Moradi has are very much rooted to what has always been true about her.

Welcome to the second season of Reality Streaming.

Please enjoy this conversation getting to know my dear friend, Rohini Moradi.

Hawa: It’s so wonderful to be with you. Thank you for encouraging me to create Reality Streaming five years ago.

Rohini: What an honor to be part of that journey and any part of your journey. What a cool concept to “binge watch the illusion.” That is life…we’re binge watching reality. And sometimes we get so disillusioned by it and it becomes so boring that we have to binge watch manufactured reality.

H: Mhmm. When I was exposed to the practice of reading the Akashic Records and how the teachings flow through you, I felt I could see life and reality through a different vantage point. As I’ve gone through this practice over the last 6 years, that observer state has pulled back even further and I'm almost watching the information come through from really far back. There are so many layers to reality…to shedding them, getting caught up in them, and figuring out your way around them. What is your reality right now?

R: I…Don’t know! I’m all over the place, and just to kind of go back to what you were saying about our vantage point of reality so to say…our place of view, our seat, wherever we put it is going to create the reality we have. I’m trying to think about the point of perception we have that affects our whole reality. My point of perception goes really close, really far…macro / micro / macro / micro, nothing in between. I want to be in the center but I can't right now. I’m cleaning the whole house, there’s one room left. The dust is settling so I’m getting anxious hahaha. I’m clearing my mind and hoping reality comes with a clean house. I’m confused right now.

H: I think sometimes the simplest things…chop wood, carry water. Clean the house and maybe it’ll come and maybe it won’t. The center will always be there and we’re orbiting around it.

R: There are moments where I'm certain this is the answer and then an hour later it's a completely different answer. This is kinda like really dangerous territory to be in one's mind honestly. The possibilities are endless, the outcomes are endless and it gets really foggy and convoluted but based on what we’ve been taking about past few weeks too maybe we have to go through seasons in life like that where it gets all mixed up and confusing and you just let the dust settle and see where it lands. I think just being responsible, whatever that means, and knowing ourselves in those moments is really vital.

What does one do when they don’t know themselves anymore?

H: That’s a big topic of convo. Not knowing oneself or shedding the stories about oneself. You’ve been in a reflective space, and I’m curious what you feel complete about?

R: That’s a good question. I don’t know if I'm ready for a completion of any kind. Maybe it shouldn't be sad but it feels sad to say goodbye to a past version. I’ve been reflecting a lot on different people I was. Mainly I'm focusing on my 20s right now because that’s right before I inherited a lot of responsibilities. I was dirt poor, made like $5 a week. I don't know how I paid my rent or made it. It was mostly through friendships and relationships, everyone held each other up. Throughout my 30s I shut her out and thought that was a completion and now I have to bring her IN. Bring her back to life and bring her in again because she was fearless, she was insane, dragging photo equipment and set stuff from one place to another in a taxi. Not having enough money for a taxi and asking “is it ok if i give you this instead of that??” as I'm dragging my stuff out. Eventually I made friends with a limo driver who would pick me up and drop me off for like $15 wherever I needed to be. It was so fab but I barely had anything. I love that fearless aspect of that part of me. I don’t think I’m ready for the completion of everything. I love having a bunch of screens open per se. If you look at my phone I have 20 things I'm working on. My vision board is on my phone so I can see it. The messiest part about me is Safari, all these things I want to work on still. I feel like that’s what’s happening in my brain too. Very organized but lots of pages open.

H: People tend to think that’s overwhelming and that they need to close all those tabs. In a world that’s forcibly closing tabs upon us, I think it is such a beautiful thing to claim space in the multiplicity of yourself, past present or future. You sharing that reminds me of my nightlife days in San Francisco carrying around photo equipment, making $50 a night and selling drink tickets because I didn’t drink.

R: Wait, you did photography too?

H: Yeah at Public Works, Del Rio, Mezzanine

R: Did you know Brian Tarney??

H: Haha yes! I shot Pusha T at Mezzanine, and that was a highlight because I partly grew up in Virginia Beach. If you got to live in SF in the modern era it was just such a hotbed of activity. For those who don’t know, Rohini, you were there for a long time and now you’re in your forest home… there are so many things that are bubbling for you, how are your 20s and this return to fearlessness allowing you to explore less tread on areas of your life?

R: Right now I’m just throwing noodles on the wall and seeing what sticks. I’m in that exploration mode, I’m not saying goodbye to anything. Maybe next week I’ll be like “Hawa, I’m saying goodbye to this thing.” Sometimes the tabs do close. Yeah you know I was that person who felt extremely overwhelmed during career day and having to choose a college based on what you wanna do. Having to choose something in life that you have to pursue forever. Then they get responsible and they do it. But I didn’t do that, so I feel like in one way makes life a lot harder. Creating your own path and trying to live and eat and pay for things becomes really difficult when you don’t follow that formula. It’s not for the faint of heart.

But fortune favors the bold...not fortune as in money, but in experience.

People who decide to go through it just get hit a lot with life stuff, but the ability to become a chameleon becomes easier with that type of lifestyle to move from one thing to another.

I remember after my grandfather passed away I went with my parents back to Iran. One evening one of my grandma’s best friends was having a party and her house was full of artifacts her and her husband had gathered from travelling everywhere. She had a story about everything. I grabbed one of her skirts and a vase that I still have. I wish I still had the skirt! I remember being in her house and being so inspired by her stories. She didn’t care about the stuff but she had all these stories to tell. To me that was the coolest. I was like that’s what I want to do with my life.

I want to live fully no matter how hard it can be at times and collect as many stories as I can.

It’s possible in my mind to go from one thing to another and just be able to move through life in that way. If this phase is done, then maybe we move on to this other thing. Yeah I'm realizing things are coming to completion...now I will stop it from coming to completion! muahahaha!

H: I must self sabotage! Hahahaha. I’m curious what stories are calling to you or what experiences are calling to you and how do you follow that thread in this era in your life?

R: I’m really excited to get back into acting, which is so weird to say out loud. I’m so excited about how scared I am of it. Maybe I wanna be in just one movie. I’m not imagining a whole career. I can’t commit c’mon, I just need the story! Hahahaha. I’m not going into it with any sense of urgency or desperation or any ounce of settling for something in my bones. I’m just gonna go put myself out there only do the things that I wanna do and either continue it or not we’’ll see what happens:

H: Do you have a style of acting or type of role or genre?

R: I wanna play a really emotional role where I just wanna cry and scream. And thrilling, you know, be tough. I wanna get in the mindset of a really emotional crazy role. We’ll see if one comes to fruition or not. I feel like I have a lot of bottled up stuff inside to channel.

H: Totally! I’m gonna cite this really epic docu series called....Dubai Bling lol. It’s actually a reality show about really rich people in Dubai. One of the people on the show swears by her acting coach and she tries to get one of her friends going through a divorce to get a session. It seemed really cathartic, almost like reality tourism...to step into these different roles and states and draw from there.

R: I’m working with an amazing acting coach and there are all these amazing techniques we can use. I think about this in terms of acting a lot. If we’re all in this big pool as humanity…you know, Carl Jung collective unconscious. There are experiences outside of ourselves we can draw from because we’re all so intertwined. So when you fall into these roles in this myriad ways of being, it draws us closer and plugs us in on the collective unconscious which is really exciting to me.

H: I feel like I do that in my own ways with the practices I’ve studied over the last 5 years. Studying, practicing and getting experientially involved...I lived in Santa Cruz for two summers, I was in Brazil for 3 months last year...I love to immerse myself in new settings to be deeply present and absorb and seek how I relate in new environments. How do I build that muscle of compassion for humanity and absorb deeper in that understanding? The more I know the less I know honestly. I keep going back to that statement these days.

R: We make plans and god laughs. I feel clear now but I never know, I think it’s a fun thread to pull anyways. It does tie in to the whole exploration of oneself. You know we’re talking about second seasons and we do that at this age. When I was a kid I was willing to take any role. I don’t have the desperation thing now. Also I’m a middle eastern looking person who wasn’t really featured back then and there were comments about my nose, this or that. I asked my dad: Do you think I am pretty enough to be an actress and can make it as an actress? He said, “Well yeah you’re ok, if you really want to make it you should get a nose job.”

H: Classic persian dad

R: Yeah and then I lost interest.

H: It’s wild how something like that can totally shift your life.

R: Yeah. I just kinda gave up and then I took on music. I really wanted to perform and connect with people and let what’s inside of me come out. I’m one foot in and one foot out with astrology and my sister’s an astrologer, but I guess I have a Leo north node...which is something I’ll be fighting with my whole life. But I feel like we all express ourselves in different ways.

For me, Reality Streaming comes when I can be in front of people and let it stream through me. You know what I mean? When I’m by myself it doesn’t stream.

H: It totally makes sense, especially when seeing you as a teacher, when you’ve done workshops or taught programs, even dare we say the final teacher training you’re doing that I’m in. I started in one of your first workshops and I am finishing in your final workshops. It’s so full circle it’s funny. It had to be that way.

R: It had to be! I knew it! From the first time I met you I was like I know her somehow, but I’m trying to be professional like “Haha, and yes what about you?” But there’s something more here. Just be normal Rohini, you’re teaching a class on the Akashic Records.

H: And now we live 20 minutes away from each other, which is wild. and we are finally gonna meet in person.

R: I feel like I meet you in person all the time which is crazy.

H: I love these circular moments...how you talk about how you express, share and stream when you’re connected to an audience. There is so much to be learned and gained in the position of the teacher and there’s so much learning that happens on the path to become a teacher. I love the phrase teaching to learn and learning to teach...and I'm curious what teaching has taught you and what it means to move into a different role as a teacher?

R: Being a teacher is a true honor. It’s something that I really wanted to do since high school. I fell in love with my English Teacher. I liked the 3 months off. The idea of a teacher has been scary to me because I grew up in a temple and to be a Pujari / teacher temple type person you have to go through rigorous practice, learning and you have to be a disciple for a very long time before being granted a title like that. So I always kept that in mind. I never really jumped in until the Akashic Record stuff.

Well LIES, I have a bartending school. But I worked for 10 years doing that before teaching it. With the Akashic Stuff it happened a lot faster. I felt like I had my whole life that I was prepping for that moment. Even though I had only known about the different layers of reality in a way...it made sense to me at that point...not made sense but I was being drawn to talk about it and connect to people about it. All those fears about going in and not knowing every single thing about it dissipated when I realized that a lot of what these modalities are about are tied to ancient teachings that are being regurgitated with new things and I was like “that’s what I grew up with.” So I don’t feel like an imposter. I'm making it make sense without all the buzz words so I felt good about it and jumped in. I realized I did go through a lot of practice. I didn’t feel the walls that I thought I’d feel. But what that taught me was to believe in myself. Because when you go into teaching a modality like that, you encounter a lot of really hurt people, a lot of people who are seeking, a lot of people who need something more out of life, a lot of people who are experiencing escapism and not happy with who they are. That taught me that that’s where I was at too, I was doing all those things and that’s what brought me here. So everyone became a mirror. It taught me mainly to feel whole and to accept myself where I was and not over-seek to fill a void if that makes sense. Teaching taught me to be whole and to love myself and to believe in myself. And if I don’t know the answer to something...if I cared I’d seek the answer, and sometimes it’s not an important thing to answer for me. And maybe that’s something else’s journey to seek out that answer. The important thing for teachers to exhibit is understanding that everyone’s on an individual journey. If we’re showing up to people and transferring our subconscious in a way out to the people we’re connecting to to also be mindful of their subconscious and to be mindful of what journey they need to go through. It taught me a lot of things.

H: This is so helpful as I prepare to step into that role. I’ve been really meditating on my apprehension and oh “I need this many years of study” or I need a phD, or to be immersed in the practice for a really long time. I realize now that it’s about quality not quantity. If the quality of your experience is deep and profound, then it prepares you. I love what you said about being whole, because I wonder about the teachers in my life. Like are they learning anything at all through us too? I hope that it’s not just a one way transmission but that it’s an exchange. I wonder what aspect of me being present in the room is helping this person, and I only hope I can be helpful even though I know they’re watching me think all sorts of dumb stuff. I want to honor my teachers and be in mutual exchange.

R: I think choosing to be in spaces with this type of work where it’s a mutual exchange is important. Also being aware of who our teachers are. This is something scary in this line of work. It’s a breeding ground for narcissism and a lot of scary situations. I like to think, “anyone can do it!” but this initial inquisitive phase of am I worthy or am I ready...some people don’t go through that phase. And that’s when it’s scary and we have to be discerning before we jump in. I’ve jumped in with a teacher who didn’t question themselves about that stuff and it ended up really bad. I’m still getting over the emotional pain of that.

It’s weird because you have all these gurus with the answers to life and they’re taking advantage of people who are truly lost.

H: I have sensed that a lot...I haven’t been on social media much, but I keep seeing these lists of “10 things I learned from detoxing from my phone” and the culture around quick expertise etc. One of my first jobs was coding content farms, creating these top lists of things to hook people in and generate ad revenue. So when I see this type of content in the world, I sense the capitalization on the psyche and the subconscious of people who are lost. It can be helpful as a way to enter or learn something on a basic level, but it takes the effort out of being a true student and discovering what works for you personally.

I just came out of retreat with my Nei Gong teacher and was reflecting on how I didn’t want to rely too much on his help through this process. I don’t want to be that person that needs a lot of help, I really want to do my work, and I realized how much pressure I was putting on myself. Maybe I can read a little from my journal: “I don’t want to be abandoned, so I must push on my own so I don’t have to rely on others. That’s kinda the story. But that’s what teachers are there for. For you to rely on for help on your way. You don’t have to take it as gospel, you can still exercise your own discernment and sovereignty in how that teaching lives in you. It takes the weight off of the teacher and this guru like projection that they be perfect. What they are though, if you are lucky to find them, is extremely helpful, deeply loving and ardent advocates of the truth.” And I feel like I’ve experienced that with you as a teacher.

R: Oh my goodness, thanks Hawa. What an honor. I can’t believe I get to be this lucky to hear something like that and hear someone like you say that you’ve experienced something like that with me. Now I’m speechless. Something that doesn’t happen that often.

H: We can fill the space with your gorgeous laughter. Or your beautiful track “Khak-e-Pak” we heard at the top of this interview, meaning Clean Dirt in Farsi. There’s so much that you continue to teach not just through the formal writings and synthesis of classroom style teaching but through your music. The teaching has a storytelling nature, you always draw from personal experience. I feel like your album Golrang did that for me, it's this sonic dreamscape but it’s deeply intentional and there’s so much story behind it. I’d love to hear more about that.

R: The main thing I can say is that I’m really confused and I don’t make plans. But I think here’s another dad thing. My dad made a speech at my wedding and he says “You know, Rohini, her school and stuff…we wanted her to be an engineer and she didn’t do this didn’t do that” typical persian dad I think he was trying to compliment me and my choices in life and then he said “but at least she can follow her heart” and I was like well that’s true, thanks. Hahahaha. I love my dad, he’s not gonna hear this. These things do stick in my head and I think I have had the gift of not subscribing to our manufactured reality in our society. I have chosen to believe that people are good and have good intentions. I have chosen to be kind no matter what.

I think that way of living allows me to do whatever the heck comes to me. I have a lot of ideas on a daily basis and I have to choose what sticks and what doesn’t. That’s how I choose how I communicate through art to people is when it’s exciting. The only way I know how to communicate is to relate to people. Sometimes I do get self conscious because do people think I’m talking about myself a lot? But it’s the only way. It's the only way I know how to make sense of the world and connect to people.

H: The mirror world of teacher and student...we can’t tell people who they are, but we can share about ourselves. Your book comes out next Spring, it’s very exciting! What can you share about the book?

R: It’s very exciting!! I remember after a big personal trauma I was deep in meditation and the idea for a book came. It is like a storytelling type book but it’s a manuscript of actionable steps and thought provoking scientific information which is everything that floats in my psyche and subconscious when I talk about this work. So it’s the story of Rishi and how I came to know about the Akasha, which is everything. It’s about how I’ve learned and how I’ve been teaching people to connect intentionally in their unique way. It’s not a one size fits all book at all. I’m very inspired by the Vedas, which is what I grew up with. The whole ideology behind it. And the Vedas were known as a scientific collection of information...through centuries of testing...whatever stuck stuck because it was proven to be right. Now, our form of measuring science has changed so I spent a lot of time looking for new ways of explaining science that matched up with those ideologies and I put them all in that book so it would make sense to people so they can understand what I’m talking about. This is how this works, here’s this study, here’s how it relates to our bodies and that’s how we get this to work. So it makes sense for the modern day but it also makes it really accessible for those who don’t subscribe to a certain religion, ideology or even science.

It’s something for everyone to conceptualize how to use their bodies to access universal information that they’re already accessing. It’s just to make their brain loops shut up for a second so they can hear that’s what’s really happening.

Hear what our antennae is trying to pick up. So that’s the book, it’s a labor of love. All the research and everything was over 6 years but I wrote it in much less time. I have tunnel vision and I can’t stop until I can understand. I came to an understanding that I’ll never understand and to let go and let GOD! I don’t need all the answers, but here’s the collection of information that brought me to that point.

Oh, it's snowing out of nowhere right now!

You know, it’s a beautiful place to get to and not seek. But we have to seek endlessly to not seek and be content. You have to go through that rigorous journey to fully understand the comfort of not seeking. It’s kinda weird.

H: I feel like you’re describing what my sabbatical has been. It’s been 4 years. I’ve had some consulting work in this time but I’ve lived in an alternate time/space reality and am really simplifying the seeking. I remember getting an email with an excerpt of your book and that was just the tip of the iceberg. You’re stitching together two sciences...the Vedas and modern science still on the frontier of exploring and “rediscovering” what’s already been known. I think people are waiting for that to be shown to them accessibly. It’s such a gift that you’ve written this down and it’s now in a book form.

R: It was a big deal for me. I’ve been wanting to write a book for 2 decades now. And it finally happened.

H: And you’re working on another one!

R: I ammmmm. I’m so crazyyy. I feel like I get depressed when I don’t have things to look forward to. I don’t want to talk about the new book because then I’ll get my dopamine hit too soon. Does that happen to you? Like if you share something you get the dopamine hit from talking about it and then you won’t do it?

H: That to me is the science of a deeply old cultural thing. In my family we don’t share or speak on certain things unless it's happened or close to happen because of nazar or evil eye. When you put something out, there are forces that deaden the momentum. And there’s a physiological effect...dopamine!

R: If you don’t shoot your shot so early and let it ride, it’ll be more exciting!

H: Hahaha! It’s actually raining where I am in Arcata. It’s mossy and ferny and overgrown. I kinda wanna round out the conversation because I feel so excited to be talking to you. Reality Streaming has been such a labor of love for me and it stemmed from being in your presence. To have you share where you’re at in life, teaching, creativity and projects to come...renaissance woman! I feel like you’ve shared so much advice, and now as the Magic Inclined community you’ve cultivated through your spiritual teachings shifts into new hands, what advice can you share for me?

R: First off, I’m just so honored that you are open to it. I can’t believe how life has this perfect way of working out and bringing what needs to be to the forefront. My advice is to not get in your own way, because I did. I self sabotaged, the whole “I’m not worthy! I’m scum!”

H: Been there!

R: Don’t do that to yourself. Everytime you’re showing up for somebody else you’re showing up for you also. Go in there with your heart open because honestly every single person in that community is such a sweetheart and waiting to connect with people. I've said this before that I felt like I dropped the ball on them, not because I didn’t care because I burnt myself out. Believe in yourself and have fun. For you especially, Hawa. “We make plans and God laughs” keeps coming up when I talk to you. You are patient, you marinate, you are open and you allow life to happen before you. So if you just go in being yourself, everything else will work itself out anyway.

H: Thank you. Yeah the marination is deep.

R: It’s good. We live in such a fast paced society. Why not enjoy it instead of taking control. You’re really good about that. It’s a quality a lot of us have lost. You’re already bringing ease and warmth to the space even if you show up and sit there hahaha.

H: Ideal job description!! “Your only job is to sit there in silence.” Sign me up!

R: We were watching the Beatles documentary where they're all in the practice space recording their last album together and there’s a Hari Krishna guy sitting and praying in the corner. And they don’t mention it. He was just there for the vibe, his presence was enough to ground everybody. It was kinda cool, it reminds me of that.

H; The world needs a little bit more of that. I feel like I had such a deeply activist, social justice, go hard in the paint energy since my teens. I was talking to you before about just how often I show up for battle. I was raised by war refugees and I’ve really been in the fight most of my life. I think it’s been an act of resistance to be really in the peace. And to hold that space…that is the ultimate medicine. It’s not about not being engaged or not being involved. It’s about knowing who I am at this moment.

Thank you for witnessing me in that and for allowing me to step forward authentically into this new chapter. I feel so honored to be a student, a friend and a compatriot on this journey with you.

R: I feel the same, Hawa, I really do. It’s been a wonderful experience getting to know you and honestly I knew it from the first time I met you that’s what was gonna happen...ha ha haaa!

H: Thank you so much Rohini, thank you for your teaching, your music, your art, the way you hold space for hundreds of thousands and millions of people worldwide and I wish that you continue to find yourself in spaces where what you have to say is really supported and received. You have such a light hearted way of seeing the world and being in presence with others, thank you.

R: Thank you, Hawa.

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From my perch in the San Juan mountains, solstice blessings to you!

It is Friday October 29th and I am currently in Kansas City, Missouri. It's been raining here for a week straight. The landscape is…vibrant in it's wetness and in the gradient of fiery orange burst of molting trees. A welcome thirst quenched from the desertification of California where the rains are rare but torrential this year. 

This morning at 1 AM, I was two coffees in and hunched on a couch surrounded by my cousin's fighting cats practicing my animal whispering. I'm also tardy in submitting this quarter's paper. I could attribute that to what I'm currently synced to (for example: detoxing from productivity and visibility culture, grieving the recent crisis in my homeland Afghanistan, nomadic migrations across the country to reconnect with family, getting present with the wisdom in each thing and way of being, monitoring my screen nutrition and immersing into a field of intuitively guided study unbounded by time or genre.)

OR 

I could attribute that to a very intentional all-nighter that coalesces a few weeks worth of undocumented ruminations into a pressure cooked offering for the good people at Somewhere Good. 

Both are true. 

I'm both withholding my energy and expending it in the exact cadence and format that feels best to my nervous system. Asynchronous communication and how it is understood among digital technologists can allow us to govern our labor by our own personal realities and cycles. May we find ourselves in a posture of life and therefore apt to giving and creating or in a posture of death and therefore apt to deconstructing and retreating, or somewhere in the middle of that space in a dance of transmutation and compost. These ebbs and flows are integral in knowing how to hold space for each other in the circuitous game of life, death and life again.

In the echo chamber of pandemia and personal/collective crises, this gentle accommodation reminds us that we are human first. That our bodies are important to consider as we plug ever deeper into digital cohabitation. That our biorhythms, sensory sensitivity and regulatory functions are vital co-creators. This is what interests me most, not necessarily how this form of communication is quote “useful for achieving maximum efficiency” end quote (to quote gitHub), but how we can delight in being Bodied. 

In being of a rhythm, frequency and cadence that experiences pleasure and harm in a way that does not compare to a non-sentient, securely encased phone screen, or a classroom of laptops chained to desks in a digital lab—the fragments of our imagination in these technologies have us burnt out. The balance between doing and being has been severely disrupted by our modern work and social habits. As we become more bodied, how do our surroundings and environment play a role in our right timingness when it comes to communication and co-creation?

And a side note—I've had a hard time with the term “delight” as I'm recovering from lingo associated with customer retention strategies AKA “surprise and delight,” and so would propose we look at this with new verbiage. Still TBD on that.

Super side note: I asked a dear friend just the other night what would be delightful about roaming on an asynchronous digital platform and he replied, “being at a computer with a fifth of whiskey next to you.” Umm not my preference, but I thought it was funny, because while it is hard to understand what can feel delightful about screen time for me personally right now, I do know that my environment and placement is a big part of the equation and something I don't want to forget as necessary in our time-space and space-time intimacies. 

I believe if our self governance structures are rooted in the natural cycles to which our bodied reality is attuned to, we can flip how we think about Chronos, or time, to ease us more into beingness than the doingness with which asynch in my opinion is attempting to alleviate. 

At 2 AM, I struggle with where I'm going with the ideas in this response..the prompts always provoke more questions and I'm feeling a little too autonomous through this co-creation process. I guess I will start with my first instinct, which was to contextualize some of the words used so maybe I will try that now. 

Autonomous: 

Um well, autonomy implies a sort of independence and separateness from others. I don't believe we ever truly act autonomously or individually to begin with. We are a concert of collectivity, an orchestra of movements incepted into what seem to be individual gestures only by nature of our human centrism. Collective consciousness, and even culture itself, is its own autonomous force. These entities signal to us, too. They tell us when we are ready to retire certain constructs or functions, and where emergent needs arise on a mass scale. What feels individual in this context is perhaps our personal roles within the matrix of collective consciousness. Some of us are great translators, conductors or artists of this vast information and wisdom. And others are architects or critics of this information. 

So as we're thinking about what roles were playing, and as we’re thinking about autonomous co-creation, I'm also curious how we think about authority. How are we dispersing the power to make decisions to fail, to succeed in your outcomes? 

What else, too, do notifications look like that don't infringe on personal privacy? I personally am not a fan of my movements or presence being monitored or watched, but do understand that that is table stakes in some ways with how we conduct our digital presence. So what are the signals and customization features that can be created to help appease visibility preferences and privacy? How can we do this in a way that takes the paranoia, projection and self-centered criticism out of asynchronous messaging? So-and-so person isn't getting back to me but they're clearly posting, is there something about me that's wrong why am I not important enough to get back to, or their priorities are all wrong. To me autonomy is not getting caught up in someone else's form of self-governance or taking it personally. And so creative boundaries through product features, through digital environments in this case, might help people cocoon themselves in the ways that are best suited to them. 

Okay looking at co-create or co-creating, co-creation:

Even in the writing of this is an autonomous co-creation between myself, Google, Apple and each of the family members housing me. How can we consider the dynamics individuals are embedded into and expand that idea of autonomy? Because we are never really solely self-governing, we are interdependent, we must acknowledge the unseen labor that goes into co-creation, whether that is a citation that pens your conceptual collab with an author or a prayer that acknowledges the past forces beings and stewards that created the conditions for our present creations. We are never creating in silos. 

My impulse to produce is informed by a system of dynamics that one could say are invisibly functioning much like our autonomic nervous system. Rituals of creation are playing on loop in the form of background music and incense, snack platters, witty retorts…this mythodology is a collab between a comfortable beingness and a generative doingness. 

So when I see beyond the individual, I scale up to see the collective as autonomous body, all the way down to our microbiological bodies. How are we co-creating with our microbiomes, the conditions to get our guts, our insight machines, in order? How do we co-create overthinking or worry with our spleens? Where does this invisible, yet automatic, co-creation exist when we think of bodied emotions, as practices like traditional Chinese medicine teach us. Where are these feelings and conditions encoded in our organs and in our systems? How can we witness these collaborators as a part of the ecosystem of our labor?

Asynch:

In my asynchronous exchanges with friends, I have a ritual of inviting my environment into the conversation. Contextualizing my presence in this way helps me feel more intimate with everyone. Describing the weather, how I am sitting, what I'm craving, how I'm currently leaned up against a damp wooden post and the smell of smoke and mildew fills the air. 

While this is a conversation on time, place also feels like a really important factor in how we sync with each other. How can we place ourselves when in communication? How can our disembodied voices and body holograms maintain roots in the real world? How can our thinking come from the body and not just the mind? Can asych give us the space and place to speak in a more embodied way? 

Just a future trip for a second, I wonder if through the rise of voice and video communique more attention and grooming will be placed on our vocal boxes and screen visible face-neck-shoulders. And what then does this compound in terms of conversations on ability or perceptibility? Some things to think about.

And can we talk about synchronicity?

At 3AM I'm typing out a web search, “NSYNC name origin.” 

I wondered if synchronicity had anything to do with the origin of NSYNC’s band name. While one of their mothers thought how in-sync their voices were, in harmony, it also happened to be a play on the last letter in each of their names: JustiN, ChriS, JoeY, JasoN, and JC. It also just so happens that Justin, the first in that line of names, was the first to leave the band and make a solo career happen. The in, or “N” in JustiN, leaves the sync. So they are no longer in harmony, and Justin is Justified in this decision, as per the name of his debut solo album. 

While these thoughts are asynchronous in how they arise over time, over the span of years, there is an intriguing meaningful connection between those points of communication. I wonder how we can play with patterns such as these in the product development process. How crumbs of encoded meaning can create stories, prophecies or take the work out of iteration rooted in protocol, and instead infuse play synchronistically as one continues to redraft their design. 

At 4:44 AM I've just come back to my laptop after spending a great deal of time distracted on my phone. Scrolling on social media, fact-checking silly things about pop culture, screenshotting books that stoke me. Creating uninhabitable conditions for the ideas in my mind so they jump out on to this doc. 

I am not perfect, I do not have perfect ways, I am prone to miscalculate, faff around, accumulate and on and on. 

I crave Fallibility Frameworks. As we remember our humanness, we cannot forget how prone we are to error. Are there frameworks in which we can assume the inevitability of error? Error as an initiatory passage into new possibilities. As an opportunity to re-prioritize or expand one's ability to remain steadfast through discomfort. In a world where billionaires like Elon Musk can literally have a product that can explode or catch fire at random and still be a billionaire, I wonder how we can be more gentle in holding people to account for poor communication or ill-informed references. How can we hold people tenderly through things when, compared to the stakes that exist for certain people who get the pass, do not exist in equal measure for the everyday person.

Insert sub tweet about cancel culture, but I'm just too tired to even use that phrase anymore.

Onward!

In what I've read in the “trades,” or industry magazines and sites about asynch, it seems that failure of communication is a call for synchronous or face-to-face / real-time meetings and touch points. But what if that failure is instead a call for creativity rather than a fix or a response by synchronous behaviors and meetings? I think of Jack Halberstam's work in The Queer Art of Failure. 

What if failure is a privilege? That we get to mess up, and perhaps get a remarkable answer or just figure out how to communicate better. What return or reward can be garnered from the investment into failures? How can we really fail if failure is a part of the equation?

At 5:30 AM, I'm thinking about all the ways I failed in my queerness and my queerness failed me. How we sometimes were not aligned in our expectations of each other but that misalignment taught us to be elastic. It taught us to be the spectrum instead of extracting it for a purpose: i.e. to attract, to signal to someone else, to perform, to ascend the ranks of invisibility from an invisible place…

just be 

just breathe 

At 7 AM, in the wake of this surf, I've found myself sitting with a rough draft and little desire to refine after this short line of questioning on failure. I might have failed to tie loose thoughts or provocations together, but that is my geolocation right now—my Synch City. It's a place that is a little disheveled, ephemeral and fallible, though not without some thought starters I hope. 

As a fun experiment in conjuring synchronous dialogue through asynchronous communiques, I am thinking of Shuya at this moment, wondering how or if she will wax quantum about asynch digitality. I wonder if Emmerline will ground us fellows into dialogue with each other in tender acknowledgement of all we are holding in this 

[Phone rings in stargaze ringtone. Voices speak in Dari.]

Hawa: Yes?

Mom: Hawa Jaan?

Hawa: Hello Mama Jaan.

Mom: Hello my sweet. How are you, my child? Are you well?

Hawa: Good thank you, how are you?

Mom: Good thank you. Today I was a little busy, then I wanted to go to the market, but it didn’t happen, so I am home right now.

Hawa: I myself am busy right now but I can call you after this.

Mom: Ok, I await your call.

Hawa: Ok

Mom: Ok, may God protect you.

Hawa: Love youuu

Mom: I love you too

Hawa: Goodbye

Mom: Goodbye

[Mom hangs up]

I wonder if Emerline will ground us fellows into dialogue with each other in tender acknowledgement of all we are holding in this tenth month of the year. I can hear Mandy's eyes scanning from a sacred space. Humphrey is listening with a premonitory knowing and yet responds with a shriek of purity. Legacy is expertly in many places at once and yet wholly present. Van is giving so much—I hope they remember to hold the heart space for a manifold return of their love. And Naj is on the precipice of precipices, and I hope she remembers we are holding her.

These are all projections, possibilities or conjurings depending on how you look at it, and that is where the delight is for me. It's in that mystery, which is appropriate considering we've entered Scorpio season. The willingness to stand both correct and corrected…when you hit the send button 

at 10AM.

~~~PostScript: I wanted to do this weaving of thoughts from notes and improvisation and just some things I've been thinking about in the ethers as both a practice in asynchronous communication, and also as a way to gather myself with the conditions that are available to me in this moment. For bringing ideas down-to-earth…which I feel tenderly about, because there is so much processing that's happening in the background and in the depths. And so, I thank you for listening to this two-part uh transmission. This two-part asynchronous transmission thanks to the lovely intermission of my mother calling me in between. 

So yeah. Lots of love and thoughts from this beautiful park in Kansas City. 

Can't wait to talk to you all.

~~~outro ♫ —> moth porsesh by acidafghan

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Excerpt: 🎶~~ It’s a tender thing to be mid-molt and to be thrusting myself into the public. But that’s how the cards are stacked! And now they’re stacked to take me back home. Back to Sacramento, to rescue that emo girl, to teach my mother about love, to surrender to the next layer of grief, to understand what it takes to be truly happy. ~~🎶

How do you know when it’s time to uproot? That it’s the right decision? How does it feel to plant somewhere new?

Happy Spring Equinox eve, friends! To balancing the material with the immaterial, rebirth and cleansing all that does not serve you anymore as you blossom into the light.

Stay tuned for more collaborative streams coming soon.

To new beginnings <3

~Hawa